The struggle continues...What is with this month?! This past weekend, I was so set on doing something different to my hair: maybe a little cut to reshape, or maybe even...some color! After going through the highly anticipated "Beyonce Tumblr Page" I thought to myself "Hmm, maybe some highlights would be nice." You know, to give a little dimension. Honestly, I am B.O.R.E.D. with my hair, but at the same time I don't want to do anything impulsive (because lord knows I cry at the drop of a hat if my hair is not just the way I want it).
I'm trying so very hard to keep my eye on the prize (growing it out one length, and since we always need a hair idol to look up to -- Amel Larrieux is that hair idol for me).
But are we just setting ourselves up for disappointment when we have "hair idols?" I am so used to visualizing someone else's head of hair on my head and am losing sight of what works for me. Maybe, just maybe, I'm not meant to have the long bohemian coils of Amel Larrieux, and I'm definitely not meant to go any shorter than my shoulders (lived and learned) -- definitely a no-no!
Anyway, I guess that's the whole point of documenting this journey in the first place, to visualize the "other" through experimenting until you can eventually visualize the "self". And that my friends, is a hard bridge to cross, and maybe once you think you've crossed it, you go right back to the other side.
I think it may be time to reconnect with my coils and take it from there. It's been a minute since I've actually worn it out.
And as RuPaul would say: If you can't love yourself, how the hell are you going to love somebody else?"
And that starts from "hair" to toe. Can I get an Amen?
The "life and times" of a curly gal continues...